This bullshit of getting out of jermayne's place is stressing me out to no end. I just wish that she could be quiet in the odd hours of the night, instead of fighting with her god damn boyfriend. When all i really think she is doing is crying for attention. I have never met anyone that is so worthy of a t-shirt, which says "its all about me," in my entire life. She wants me to be compasionate to her situation, which i am to a certain level. But, Im not going to bend over backwards and give her all the money. There are two sides to this, (and i am not looking for simpathy or aggreance on) she has been disrespectful in the sense that i am unable to sleep at night due to their fighting, and therefore cannot start working untill 12 or 1 the next day. This pisses me off to no end, because i have to work until 5 and then i have no time to actually do anything i want to do, like go to galleries.
I have never been so effing stressed out in my entire life! i wish there was an easy way to get through this. If she had some form of grounding in her life i think i would be able to reason with her. But, NO! She doesnt have a job, she doesnt have a bank account, and she has an abusive boyfriend, or she is abusive to him. I think it is the lader not the former.
I want to have fun in new york, IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK. last night, if you saw my video, i was wrong. They were fighting until 6 in the morning. i woke up every 2 hours to noises, and this was the worst sleep of my life.
I know that i wanted to start focusing on the positive aspects about life, but in my given situatioin, I am having a tough time! I know when i get back home that being positive will be a eazy breazy! But now? not so eazy!
so here i sit in the Bowrey Poetry Club, waiting on a couple phone calls which will help me figure out the situation.
All i want to do is come home to a safe place where i will not be kept up all night. i think i would be more leaniant if people were partying, but shouting and fighting is unacceptable. Though i am not threatend violently, my only concern is my financial, and the inablity to work, and focus due to lack of sleep.
i think i am repeating myself. i just wanted to share my fucking break down with you folks who are following this blog. if you want to do things to make me feel better, though i am not asking. but all i would like is for people who i care about, and those that care about me, just tell me that im missed thats all i want.
Mr. Lemermeyer.
Maybe this experience will turn me into a man.
I have never been so effing stressed out in my entire life! i wish there was an easy way to get through this. If she had some form of grounding in her life i think i would be able to reason with her. But, NO! She doesnt have a job, she doesnt have a bank account, and she has an abusive boyfriend, or she is abusive to him. I think it is the lader not the former.
I want to have fun in new york, IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK. last night, if you saw my video, i was wrong. They were fighting until 6 in the morning. i woke up every 2 hours to noises, and this was the worst sleep of my life.
I know that i wanted to start focusing on the positive aspects about life, but in my given situatioin, I am having a tough time! I know when i get back home that being positive will be a eazy breazy! But now? not so eazy!
so here i sit in the Bowrey Poetry Club, waiting on a couple phone calls which will help me figure out the situation.
All i want to do is come home to a safe place where i will not be kept up all night. i think i would be more leaniant if people were partying, but shouting and fighting is unacceptable. Though i am not threatend violently, my only concern is my financial, and the inablity to work, and focus due to lack of sleep.
i think i am repeating myself. i just wanted to share my fucking break down with you folks who are following this blog. if you want to do things to make me feel better, though i am not asking. but all i would like is for people who i care about, and those that care about me, just tell me that im missed thats all i want.
Mr. Lemermeyer.
Maybe this experience will turn me into a man.
posted by tLemermeyer at 3:15 PM
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